Thursday, January 13, 2011
Afraid to ask...
Do you ever question God's timing?
As Christians, I think sometimes we feel we shouldn't. That we should be "above" doubts and questions. That it's not okay to ask. Secretly we do inside, anyway, because guess what - Christian or not, we're still human.
There's been some moments lately where I've really wanted to ask why, especially concerning my mother in law and her tragic horseback riding accident. Not only the "why" of the accident in the first place, but more recently the why of why God was allowing her to stay in the complete vegetative state she's in. Why was He not showing her and her family mercy by taking her home, or by healing her? One or the other seemed so much better than lingering in her current condition. For the life of me I can't figure out why this has happened the way it has and REALLY can't figure out why continues to drag on the way it has.
But you know what? As a Christian, I understand that I don't GET to understand. Make sense?
Living our faith isn't never asking why. Its not biting our tongue and holding back the questions or tears pouring from our hearts. I believe living our faith is about accepting and embracing God's love and timing and will DESPITE those questions.
We can still ask. We might or might not get answers, and deep down, we know that's okay.
What do you need to ask God why about today? Are you holding back for fear it will make you a bad Christian?
Pour your heart out to the Lord and just ask why. Go ahead! Cry. Rant. Yell! Because you know what? He knows how you feel anyway ;) Might as well confess it out loud and clear the air. Don't hold back your feelings from the One who created you in the first place. Get it alllllll out - all the questions, all the doubts, all the fears, all the why's - then let Him assure you in the way only God can.
You probably won't get a specific answer to your specific problem in that moment. You probably won't hear a booming voice from the sky. (if you do, let me know! ::wink::) But you'll get peace. Philippians 4:7. "And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and mind in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Let's ask together today.